Love is the centre of my core, my reason for waking every day. It is the love and compassion I feel for those around me and the pleasure and satisfaction I derive from those relationships that gives my life meaning. I have been shown love from the moment I was born I was bought up by two great people who were supported in our upbringing by an amazing extended family, I have had many trouble’s in my life even moments of utter desperation where ending it would be easier than feeling the pain I was experiencing but this love I feel from everyone is the sustenance needed to keep me going. Here is a little bit about who I love;
I have a funny relationship with god, but I feel a very deep connection with him at times. I hate that I rely on him more through hardship and want to work on getting closer through the good times. I’m not saying that God dropped a $20 note today but I was walking home wondering how I was going to survive till Wednesday as an unexpected expense came up leaving me with 40 cents in my bank count then I looked up and saw the note just lying there it was a windy day but it was just sitting there waiting for me. It is these little moments that remind me I’m so blessed.
Your children bring a new dimension to your life, you never know the capacity of your heart until your child is born, it’s an overwhelming sensation one that can be scary. It is hard having something so precious and special as the fear of anything happening to them can bring on an instant sweat and a deep pang in your heart. If your children are a reflection of you I am pretty proud to say Char is mine, She has so much energy and talent I have no doubt she is bound for greatness and I will be there supporting her the best way I know how. She is also a moody little tart I hope through refining my own temperament and showing her more consistency along with lots of love she will be able to manage this so it does not effect her future relationships. All my hope and dreams are for this girl she is the bestest…..
My buddies are fuckin RAD, they are all so different I dont have a ‘type’, some are into shit like car’s and listen to dubstep or gangster rap (Zee), and if you know me, you will understand I could not give two shit’s about any of that. We live hour’s apart and sometimes can go a few months without seeing each other but when we are together it’s like nothing has changed I know I have a group of solid friends that will be around forever . There are also the people I do not know so well or do not have the benefit of time behind our bond, I am constantly astounded at these people that cross my path, especially lately. I have had some amazing conversations that I have left feeling totally inspired or there point of view has helped me come to some conclusions of my own in regards to some hard situations. I don’t ask for people’s advice much anymore nor do I want to disclose my personnel business as it would taint there opinion on myself and the people involved but answer’s and compassion seem to be flowing freely in my direction. Maby this is another prayer answered?
I am endlessly grateful for all the blessing’s in my life right now, I am in a state of brokenness and trying to understand a horrible betrayal but shit is good I feel like every day it will only get better. <3
